My Life, Your Entertainment

For the last 3 months there’s this girl that calls and texts me on the daily. She a nice girl, very beautiful, pretty smart. Pretty much a good girl that any dude would love to be with. But the thing figure out is why do she want me. I’m a total wreck. I’m still crying over my ex. I’ve toad this girl my situation and she could care less. Christmas she kissed me…I felt so good and bad at the same time. It was the 1st kiss I’ve had in a while but it didn’t feel right. Idk what to do. I mean I know she wants to be with me. but I don’t want her to get her hope up…I haven’t talk to her since the kiss but I think its time for me to talk her about How I feel about the situation…

alyaae:

(Source: lionellmessii, via b-rawww)

Well 2011 is coming up and I’m just sitting her reflecting on the past year I’ve had some highs (literally) and some lows. And I’ve realize that this hasn’t been a good year but I’ve survived this year. I’ve had some good days. And I’ve had some WTF days. And I’m gonna go into 2011 with a clear mind so all the bullshit that effed up my year will not (I REPEAT) will not cause any corruption in my life. I’m gonna over it…I’m gonna hit the delete bottom on it. Its about time that I do I call myself mister amazing. But I feel like its a front so imma be amazing all next year I see myself in the big lights imma be famous and when I make it to the top imma thank you for putting me down so far in a hole that I felt like I could go on but. I’m am amazing and imma show you what I’m about. And you know it!

Smh. Once again I find myself looking at old pics and messages of you. Some days I’m ok and someday I find myself wanting to call you. Idk why I be acting like this. But I know its not good for me this shit is driving me crazy. I think my problem is that idk if we was supposed to end I guess I need a very logical explanation for why we can’t be together anymore. I mean damn I know I’m not perfect. I guess I wasn’t the one. But I hope you come back to me b4 its to late you know I love you B